From the recording Onward
Some times, at least for me, a project can last an eternity and never reach completion. I had been writing this piece for my girlfriend at the time, and during that process we had broken up. It wasn't an easy time for me. As with most "Muggles", when it rains it pours, and I was fighting some other battles that had surfaced as well. It is odd, the forms that inspiration will come to us. What was intended to be a romantic piece of music, ended up coming to fruition through the pain caused by the end of that relationship.
And so, with my new found pain and desperate need to move on, I completed "Clarity". I named it this, not because I had reached that point yet, but because I knew deep down that someday I needed to find it. After time passes, it is brilliant to look back at our sorrows and realize how they helped us grow. I wrote the following poem during that time to reflect on everything I felt and all that I attempted to do in order to move on. I was getting into piano technology at the time - a much needed new aspect of my life that would help keep my mind off the loss. I'll tell you this much. Losing a relationship is hard enough, but losing contact with the children involved in that relationship, is on another level.
"Fixed in a world new. Today begins time.
Swallow shards of past. Longful nursery rhyme.
Cranking strings of steel. Fingertips to keys.
Attempt to learn the poor boy, who's heart could never freeze.
Save to memory a Gem. For sparkle it no more.
Holds it in his pocket. Fate knows not its store"
- Lucas Kirby